I have been off of the whole30 for almost two weeks now, and it has been one week since my meeting with the naturopath. Most of my test results came back and she called me on Thursday to talk about it. Basically…there is nothing wrong with me. We might need to recheck my estrogen levels because they were quite high, but since the uterine ablation I don’t get a period and I have no idea where I was at in my cycle. Estrogen should be checked around day 21.
My free testosterone results weren’t back, so that might hold some answers. Or maybe it was my total testosterone. I can’t remember right now which one was back and which one we were still waiting on. Needless to say, I have never felt so disappointed that I am the picture of perfect health. All the results in the world might say I am healthy, but the way I look and the way I feel say otherwise.
So now what? That’s been the question for almost two years now and I’m getting tired of it. The answer is… I don’t know. I really don’t. I do not want to start looking at snake oils, but I am starting to feel a little desperate. I still have my appointments set up with Optimal Health and Wellness, and one of those appointments is for a hair sensitivity test. I will probably still follow through with that just to see what shows up.
I have been baking. Even though there are baked goods in the house I am trying to still eat a balanced diet. I am on a break from tracking. I know I am over the calories I need to be eating to lose and I can feel the weight adding on. But even when I eat in a deficit I feel that way. So I am on a break for my mental health. Also, I thought maybe I needed to do a reverse diet. While I am not tracking, I know I am eating more than 1400 to 1700 calories. I am considering that a reverse diet could have been necessary.
This is why when my original doctor told me to reduce my calories more and move even more, I almost lost my shit. Our bodies fight to stay in homeostasis: a state of balance among all the body systems needed for the body to survive and function correctly. So, when you reduce calories, over time the body teaches itself to function using the amount of energy it is being given. So the things we are doing on a regular basis are now using less energy to do it. This means that the workouts are burning less calories, our jobs are burning less calories, walking the dog burns less calories. Like an employee that has been at their job for a while, our bodies learn the easiest way to accomplish tasks with less stress, AKA less calorie burn.
With all of that, I am thinking that I will start tracking again soon. It’s hard to wrap my mind around it. These last two years, and mostly these last 6 months have really taken a toll on my motivation. Consistency is key. I know this. I need to focus on the smaller wins.
I guess that’s all for now. It’s time to go to the gym and get the dog walked.
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